I can't get no sleep
In the words of that faithless song... I can't get no sleep! I'm always struggled with periods of insomnia but this one is badly timed! I'm now worried I won't have the energy to actually give birth as I have barely slept for weeks! I'm managing two hours of broken sleep at a time. I would seriously get more sleep with a newborn! It's 5am, I'm due to be induced in 28 hours, please pray for me to fit 8 hours in somewhere!
Eight days over due
So it seems my darling child is very comfy in my tummy! Which means that on Wednesday if she hasn't made her grand appearance, I will be induced.
If I'm honest, the thought of being induced horrifies me. I won't get the water birth I'd like and it's likely to take about 24 hours to start off (boring) be a lot more intense and painful and more likely to end in an emergency c section. In an ideal world, I will go into labour naturally, stay at home until it gets too much, jump into the pool at the birthing centre at the hospital and just use gas and air.
If I'm honest, I feel as though my body is failing me. Going into labour is the most natural and womanly thing in the world... It's hard not doing so... Trying my best to focus on the fact that I've managed to grow a perfect baby in my tummy to well over full term. But illa admit, it's not easy.
Come soon miss Young, I promise that me and daddy will look after you forever.
If I'm honest, the thought of being induced horrifies me. I won't get the water birth I'd like and it's likely to take about 24 hours to start off (boring) be a lot more intense and painful and more likely to end in an emergency c section. In an ideal world, I will go into labour naturally, stay at home until it gets too much, jump into the pool at the birthing centre at the hospital and just use gas and air.
If I'm honest, I feel as though my body is failing me. Going into labour is the most natural and womanly thing in the world... It's hard not doing so... Trying my best to focus on the fact that I've managed to grow a perfect baby in my tummy to well over full term. But illa admit, it's not easy.
Come soon miss Young, I promise that me and daddy will look after you forever.
Being over due
So, we've reached and passed our due date! And I'm okay with that! Seeing how miserable other ladies have made themselves over being overdue has made me think that I really don't mind... It means I get extra time with my wiggly bump, more uninterrupted baths and a bit more sleep!
I feel like as long as my little baby arrives safely, I could not care less! Sure it'd be nice to have the perfect water birth on my due date but if I have to go through induction, four days of labour and a c section... Then so be it. As long as my baby is safe. In a months time, an extra few days really won't feel like anything...
Patience is a virtue. One that I have finally managed after being the worlds least patience woman ever (hence 16 week sexing scan)
See you soon darling baby girl
I feel like as long as my little baby arrives safely, I could not care less! Sure it'd be nice to have the perfect water birth on my due date but if I have to go through induction, four days of labour and a c section... Then so be it. As long as my baby is safe. In a months time, an extra few days really won't feel like anything...
Patience is a virtue. One that I have finally managed after being the worlds least patience woman ever (hence 16 week sexing scan)
See you soon darling baby girl
Two days till due date!
Well, I didn't think I'd get this far! I'm due in two days and 100% ready for our baby bears arrival! The car seat is ready, the nursery is ready and mummy and daddy can't wait!
A lot has changed in the last 40 weeks, James has a new career and is back at college, I've lost lots of jobs due to my "condition" and we are now planning a wedding!
I think the main thing that I wish I'd been told when I found out I was pregnant is that you never stop worrying! Ever. All day all I think about is my little tummy pig! I wish I'd been told that some of my 'friends' would be absolute arseholes and not bother with me at all... But that new friends are easy to find and how much you appreciate the true friends in your life.
The only downer really on the whole thing at the moment is financial... But then who doesn't worry about money?! Unfortunately James doesn't have as many hours as he did over the summer, I've now given up work and our lodger is moving out. Household finances have dwindled to about a third of what they were.. However, with a very snazzy spreadsheet we've worked out we'll manage and both agreed on one thing... What more could we both want?! Baby very nearly with us, due to be married next year lovely house, lovely family, our health and a lot of happiness.
The thing I'm most excited about is James becoming a daddy, I wholly believe he will be the best dad to our baby and get all teary thinking about how lucky and blessed I am to have him by my side :)
Hopefully my next post will have a squishy baby face in :) or ill be moaning and over due! The main thing is that she comes safe and sound i can wait a little longer yet :)
A lot has changed in the last 40 weeks, James has a new career and is back at college, I've lost lots of jobs due to my "condition" and we are now planning a wedding!
I think the main thing that I wish I'd been told when I found out I was pregnant is that you never stop worrying! Ever. All day all I think about is my little tummy pig! I wish I'd been told that some of my 'friends' would be absolute arseholes and not bother with me at all... But that new friends are easy to find and how much you appreciate the true friends in your life.
The only downer really on the whole thing at the moment is financial... But then who doesn't worry about money?! Unfortunately James doesn't have as many hours as he did over the summer, I've now given up work and our lodger is moving out. Household finances have dwindled to about a third of what they were.. However, with a very snazzy spreadsheet we've worked out we'll manage and both agreed on one thing... What more could we both want?! Baby very nearly with us, due to be married next year lovely house, lovely family, our health and a lot of happiness.
The thing I'm most excited about is James becoming a daddy, I wholly believe he will be the best dad to our baby and get all teary thinking about how lucky and blessed I am to have him by my side :)
Hopefully my next post will have a squishy baby face in :) or ill be moaning and over due! The main thing is that she comes safe and sound i can wait a little longer yet :)
38+5
So! Nine days until my due date and I'm getting bored! I want to get out and make some mummy friends!
Had my midwife appointment yesterday, all is well, Tilly is fully engaged and ready to go... Hopefully soon :( I'm getting uncomfortable and unbelievably bored bored bored!!
So bored that I can't think of anything interesting to say haha!
Had my midwife appointment yesterday, all is well, Tilly is fully engaged and ready to go... Hopefully soon :( I'm getting uncomfortable and unbelievably bored bored bored!!
So bored that I can't think of anything interesting to say haha!
So it's October!
Which means its the month that Tilly is officially allowed to come out and play! I'm 36+3 weeks pregnant now and baby Y is considered fully cooked in three sleeps (eeeeee!!!) can't wait!
The last two weeks have flown by, Tilly still seems to be head down and ready to go and has been treating mummy to some lovely pains in preparation! (thanks tiny bum) in the last two weeks I've had two baby showers and Tilly was ridiculously spoilt by all! And James has turned 27! Big boy now lol!
Im not uncomfortable or impatient and happy to let little bear cook to her hearts content! I'm not scared about the birth or labour and I can't wait for sleepless nights with my longed for little bub! I say bring it on! Bring it all on! I can't wait to be a mummy :)
The one thing I'm most excited about is James becoming a daddy. I believe he will be an incredible dad and has proven to me that he's my soulmate. We've been together for less than a year, I've been pregnant, anxious, grumpy and evil for nine months of that year and he's been my rock. I couldn't ask for him to work harder to support us and I'm going to be a snotty mess when I become mrs young next September :)
Life is glorious!
The last two weeks have flown by, Tilly still seems to be head down and ready to go and has been treating mummy to some lovely pains in preparation! (thanks tiny bum) in the last two weeks I've had two baby showers and Tilly was ridiculously spoilt by all! And James has turned 27! Big boy now lol!
Im not uncomfortable or impatient and happy to let little bear cook to her hearts content! I'm not scared about the birth or labour and I can't wait for sleepless nights with my longed for little bub! I say bring it on! Bring it all on! I can't wait to be a mummy :)
The one thing I'm most excited about is James becoming a daddy. I believe he will be an incredible dad and has proven to me that he's my soulmate. We've been together for less than a year, I've been pregnant, anxious, grumpy and evil for nine months of that year and he's been my rock. I couldn't ask for him to work harder to support us and I'm going to be a snotty mess when I become mrs young next September :)
Life is glorious!
The great escape
So! We've had our 34 week scan and the miracle of the womb has happened! Tilly is head down and the exit is clear and don't I know it!!!!
I've been up all week with horrendous waves of back pain, cramps, tightenings and everything else that hurts! Starting to think that Tilly may want an early exit (no baby no!) I'm knackered and feel like crap!
We found out at the scan that she has freakishly long legs so I might have to take scissors to the hospital to cut the feet off her babygros... Froggy baby :)
I have my family baby shower on Wednesday and the friends one on Saturday so would appreciate it if squidgers stayed put till then!
I've been up all week with horrendous waves of back pain, cramps, tightenings and everything else that hurts! Starting to think that Tilly may want an early exit (no baby no!) I'm knackered and feel like crap!
We found out at the scan that she has freakishly long legs so I might have to take scissors to the hospital to cut the feet off her babygros... Froggy baby :)
I have my family baby shower on Wednesday and the friends one on Saturday so would appreciate it if squidgers stayed put till then!
I wandered lonely as a cloud
A really common thing I've heard on my 'due in october' group is how lonely being pregnant is. I can personally vouch for that! It feels a lot like the second that second line pops up on that test, 90% of your friends have absolutely no interest in you or time for you.
The worst type of 'friend' is the one that pays you absolutely no attention whilst you're boring and pregnant but "can't wait" to meet your baby... two words to that one... PISS OFF!
At first I was really hurt by how shite some of my 'friends' have been but now I see it as the perfect way to cut down the wedding guest list and have a good clear out of friends. I no longer see the long and lonely weekend sat in entirely on my own (James works seven days a week) as a bad thing... I tend to potter around the house, organise Tilly's nursery and play with my beloved kitten Fishcake.
I'm really looking forward to sending out the wedding invites to my real friends and hope they know how much I appreciate them. Quite a few of my friends either live miles away or are stupidly busy but still take the time to check in us and keep me from singing 'all by myself' by Celine Dion in my pjs to my cats... It's going to be lovely to be surrounded by people that I genuinely love and that genuinely love us back at the wedding! No wasting money on twat bags that I should've bopped on the noggin months/years ago.
Plus, my life long best friend is growing (awkwardly) in my tummy... so that's always a plus :)
The worst type of 'friend' is the one that pays you absolutely no attention whilst you're boring and pregnant but "can't wait" to meet your baby... two words to that one... PISS OFF!
At first I was really hurt by how shite some of my 'friends' have been but now I see it as the perfect way to cut down the wedding guest list and have a good clear out of friends. I no longer see the long and lonely weekend sat in entirely on my own (James works seven days a week) as a bad thing... I tend to potter around the house, organise Tilly's nursery and play with my beloved kitten Fishcake.
I'm really looking forward to sending out the wedding invites to my real friends and hope they know how much I appreciate them. Quite a few of my friends either live miles away or are stupidly busy but still take the time to check in us and keep me from singing 'all by myself' by Celine Dion in my pjs to my cats... It's going to be lovely to be surrounded by people that I genuinely love and that genuinely love us back at the wedding! No wasting money on twat bags that I should've bopped on the noggin months/years ago.
Plus, my life long best friend is growing (awkwardly) in my tummy... so that's always a plus :)
Awkward baby
Hello! I am now 32weeks! Found out on Tuesday that a certain young lady is breech! So with that and waiting to see if my placenta has shifted we are looking at a c section. As having Both is a risk if I were to go into labour naturally I'll probably be having miss Tilly two or three weeks early! Naughty little chickpea!
Thankfully, the nursery is now finished and all her bits are put away. All she really needs now are more baby towels, a bouncer and a cot mobile! Nothing essential! Oh and probably some "tiny baby" clothes if she's coming early! Little monkey!
I'm not too upset that I may have to have a section, but the not knowing is a bloody nightmare!!!!
Family update - James' driving is going well, fishcake is having his coconuts removed next week and catbag is as growly and naughty as ever!
Thankfully, the nursery is now finished and all her bits are put away. All she really needs now are more baby towels, a bouncer and a cot mobile! Nothing essential! Oh and probably some "tiny baby" clothes if she's coming early! Little monkey!
I'm not too upset that I may have to have a section, but the not knowing is a bloody nightmare!!!!
Family update - James' driving is going well, fishcake is having his coconuts removed next week and catbag is as growly and naughty as ever!
It's all go in the Anderton-Elliott-Young household!
Today, I am 30 weeks and 5 days pregnant, there's 65 days till my due date and only 44 days till I'm considered full term (37 weeks). Our final ante natal class (OF SEVEN) is next thursday and its three weeks today till SCAN DAY to find out where my placenta is and make sure Tilly is growing well. If it hasn't moved, I'll be getting a C section, which is usually at 38 weeks, which is in 51 days! Scary stuff!
We've been getting very organised, the nursery is finally painted and the furniture is on order as well as the mattress to put the room together and work out a layout before I put the 'hana' touch on the room! My beloved Laura Ashley curtains will be getting a revival and are at the dry cleaners ready to be put up.
All along I've wanted a tree motif on the wall, I think I've found 'the one' on eBay but I need to do some measuring when we've decided where the cot is going. Then its time to get together some yummy hand made bits, as I don't want the room to look like it popped out of a catalogue! The only concession I've made is ordering a gorgeous lampshade from next with butterflies in the shape of a heart (sounds horrible, but it's not, honest!!) and in honour of my beloved Nana Edna, some lovely card butterflies to watch over Tilly. My nan (Nana's daughter) is convinced that Nana is a butterfly now so it brings me a lot of comfort to think that Nana will be watching over her.
I had another health scare last week at 29+5, I woke up in agony with my tummy, back and kidney, however the pain had subsided by the time I got to the doctors. She didn't seem interested and actually spent most of the appointment on the phone to another patient. I was prescribed yet more anti biotics and my wee was sent off, the results came back negative for infection, which is good news, but worrying doesn't explain the pain. I'll be seeing my midwife on tuesday next week so I will ask her advice then. Word of warning - NEVER google during pregnancy, according to google, I will die. Thanks google!
This weekend was VERY successful, my mum finally met James' mum last week for lunch which went well, then on Saturday we invited my future Father, sister and brother-in-law for dinner at mums and that went really well, I think we're going to have some lovely family times in future. One of my biggest worries (completely unfounded as they are lovely) was that our families wouldn't get on. I'm very glad that they do.
Wedding news - the church is BOOKED, the reception is BOOKED (it will be at the alverbank hotel, which is in the perfect location) and mum & I went to a vintage wedding fayre on Sunday and found the centrepieces, the florist, wedding rings, a christening idea for Tilly (bit generic, but a tree formed off all her loved ones thumbprints to go on her nursery wall, I think its a gorgeous idea) singers for the church (budget allowing)a lady who makes personalised tiaras (cos im a princess) and a few other lovely bits :) I will be a married woman in just over a years time (13/09/13) and I can't bloody wait!
James is currently studying furiously for his theory test next week and taking driving lessons when he can, unfortunately he's working seriously long hours so it's been a serious strain for him and I do feel sorry, but it will all be worth it when he's on the road! Also, he starts college in less than two weeks! Poor sod seriously has his plate full at the moment!!
Ohhh, I forgot to say, Tilly is now hiccuping! Its adorable! I would say shes head down from the sensation, which is always good news. Adorable little bear :) can not wait to meet our tummy baby now! Time will fly I'm sure!
We've been getting very organised, the nursery is finally painted and the furniture is on order as well as the mattress to put the room together and work out a layout before I put the 'hana' touch on the room! My beloved Laura Ashley curtains will be getting a revival and are at the dry cleaners ready to be put up.
All along I've wanted a tree motif on the wall, I think I've found 'the one' on eBay but I need to do some measuring when we've decided where the cot is going. Then its time to get together some yummy hand made bits, as I don't want the room to look like it popped out of a catalogue! The only concession I've made is ordering a gorgeous lampshade from next with butterflies in the shape of a heart (sounds horrible, but it's not, honest!!) and in honour of my beloved Nana Edna, some lovely card butterflies to watch over Tilly. My nan (Nana's daughter) is convinced that Nana is a butterfly now so it brings me a lot of comfort to think that Nana will be watching over her.
I had another health scare last week at 29+5, I woke up in agony with my tummy, back and kidney, however the pain had subsided by the time I got to the doctors. She didn't seem interested and actually spent most of the appointment on the phone to another patient. I was prescribed yet more anti biotics and my wee was sent off, the results came back negative for infection, which is good news, but worrying doesn't explain the pain. I'll be seeing my midwife on tuesday next week so I will ask her advice then. Word of warning - NEVER google during pregnancy, according to google, I will die. Thanks google!
This weekend was VERY successful, my mum finally met James' mum last week for lunch which went well, then on Saturday we invited my future Father, sister and brother-in-law for dinner at mums and that went really well, I think we're going to have some lovely family times in future. One of my biggest worries (completely unfounded as they are lovely) was that our families wouldn't get on. I'm very glad that they do.
Wedding news - the church is BOOKED, the reception is BOOKED (it will be at the alverbank hotel, which is in the perfect location) and mum & I went to a vintage wedding fayre on Sunday and found the centrepieces, the florist, wedding rings, a christening idea for Tilly (bit generic, but a tree formed off all her loved ones thumbprints to go on her nursery wall, I think its a gorgeous idea) singers for the church (budget allowing)a lady who makes personalised tiaras (cos im a princess) and a few other lovely bits :) I will be a married woman in just over a years time (13/09/13) and I can't bloody wait!
James is currently studying furiously for his theory test next week and taking driving lessons when he can, unfortunately he's working seriously long hours so it's been a serious strain for him and I do feel sorry, but it will all be worth it when he's on the road! Also, he starts college in less than two weeks! Poor sod seriously has his plate full at the moment!!
Ohhh, I forgot to say, Tilly is now hiccuping! Its adorable! I would say shes head down from the sensation, which is always good news. Adorable little bear :) can not wait to meet our tummy baby now! Time will fly I'm sure!
Weddings and Christenings
We are also booking Tilly's christening for April :) I think its important to be christened and is a lovely ceremony and love the thought of her having three godmothers to look after her :)
I am a happy lady!!
My first hospital stay
Had quite a dramatic week! Friday night my tummy and lower back really hurt, I woke up in the night to mid back pain and by 5.30am the pain was coming in waves every 8 seconds so I rang the maternity bleep and was asked to go to the labour ward. My mum took me down and I was strapped to a monitor, Tilly's heart was lovely and strong but I was have slight contractions every minute or so. I got to pee in a nice big bucket/cup which was better than the usual test tube! I went to have a scan, the consultant (not a sonographer so I felt very special) checked her over, measured her and checked all signs of labour (which there were none) and we checked that Tilly is still a lady - she most certainly is :) she's no longer a tiny baby and is measuring nice and average so I'm really chuffed! She has chunky little legs now too. She is an estimated 2lb2 at 27weeks! Hoping for a nice 7lb baby at full term. My placenta is still low lying and very close to my cervix so I still have to be rescanned at 34 weeks. If it doesn't move, I have to have a c-section as its really dangerous to deliver the placenta before the baby.
Anyways, my wee showed an almighty bladder infection (as the expert of life long bladder infections I had been waiting for this day) though all the normal symptoms were absent and the pain in my mid-back meant it had reached my kidneys. I got to feel it go from one into the other around lunch time, which was bloody agony! The consultant and midwives decided it was best for me to stay in over night (first ever overnight hospital stay) cue some tears from me! So James brought me some PJs, my kindle and chocolate to cheer me up and keep me occupied. I had THE worst ward-mate of all time. She was extremely over weight and snored whilst awake. Every meal time, I would eat my (rather nice) little NHS meal and watch her eat all three courses of hers then another meal her husband brought in as well as snacks all day long... it was a bit nauseating! She was very neurotic and was adamant that she should have a c section at 36 weeks (you are classed as full term at 37 but doctors recommend keeping baby in til due date) but despite 4 doctors and 2 midwives telling her to reconsider, she refused. Also, a consultant told her to go home for a week as she was only 35 weeks, but again she refused. I could sympathise as she had lost her first baby at full term so was understandable anxious... however I really would have waited til 37 weeks in her position (and gone home) after the last lot of checks at 10pm, she kindly pulled the headphones out of her TV and shared the chick flick she was listening with the room (cow) and had her own personal fan that was louder than a tractor (double cow) after three hours sleep the previous night, I lost my temper and went and asked a midwife to come and 'fix the air con' meaning theyd catch her being such a cow bag! Problem solved" But then I was woken up for more checks at 2am and 6am then pretty much not given any more opportunity to sleep with all the tests, breakfast, tea, consultant visits etc etc. I eventually saw the consultant again who said I could go home but if I get another infection, I have to go on a low dose anti biotic til the end of my pregnancy and get my very own consultant to watch over me (such a VIP).
Off I went home, tired as hell and yearning for my bed, had a little nap then off to mums for tea, as I was far too tired to even think about cooking! Rested monday, went to see my lovely midwife on tuesday who noticed I shouldve been on an IV drip (grumble) in hospital. Her trainee measured me at 30weeks, but I don't think I am... and Tilly was a nice normal size at the scan so I'm not worried! Decided not to see my midwife now until 32 weeks unless I need to. Wasn't so good at resting though and ended up painting most of the nursery (beautiful beautiful colour) and knackering myself out. Wednesday, my friends came round and we had lunch and chatted for six hours and Fishcake amused everyone with his kitteny ways!!
I'm 28 weeks tomorrow and have just finished my anti biotics but to be honest, my bladder hurts.. so I think the anti biotics are a definite for me. Ante natal class tonight, working tomorrow then it's mums big birthday weekend that I can't go into detail on as its all a surprise :)
And thats my week for you!
Anyways, my wee showed an almighty bladder infection (as the expert of life long bladder infections I had been waiting for this day) though all the normal symptoms were absent and the pain in my mid-back meant it had reached my kidneys. I got to feel it go from one into the other around lunch time, which was bloody agony! The consultant and midwives decided it was best for me to stay in over night (first ever overnight hospital stay) cue some tears from me! So James brought me some PJs, my kindle and chocolate to cheer me up and keep me occupied. I had THE worst ward-mate of all time. She was extremely over weight and snored whilst awake. Every meal time, I would eat my (rather nice) little NHS meal and watch her eat all three courses of hers then another meal her husband brought in as well as snacks all day long... it was a bit nauseating! She was very neurotic and was adamant that she should have a c section at 36 weeks (you are classed as full term at 37 but doctors recommend keeping baby in til due date) but despite 4 doctors and 2 midwives telling her to reconsider, she refused. Also, a consultant told her to go home for a week as she was only 35 weeks, but again she refused. I could sympathise as she had lost her first baby at full term so was understandable anxious... however I really would have waited til 37 weeks in her position (and gone home) after the last lot of checks at 10pm, she kindly pulled the headphones out of her TV and shared the chick flick she was listening with the room (cow) and had her own personal fan that was louder than a tractor (double cow) after three hours sleep the previous night, I lost my temper and went and asked a midwife to come and 'fix the air con' meaning theyd catch her being such a cow bag! Problem solved" But then I was woken up for more checks at 2am and 6am then pretty much not given any more opportunity to sleep with all the tests, breakfast, tea, consultant visits etc etc. I eventually saw the consultant again who said I could go home but if I get another infection, I have to go on a low dose anti biotic til the end of my pregnancy and get my very own consultant to watch over me (such a VIP).
Off I went home, tired as hell and yearning for my bed, had a little nap then off to mums for tea, as I was far too tired to even think about cooking! Rested monday, went to see my lovely midwife on tuesday who noticed I shouldve been on an IV drip (grumble) in hospital. Her trainee measured me at 30weeks, but I don't think I am... and Tilly was a nice normal size at the scan so I'm not worried! Decided not to see my midwife now until 32 weeks unless I need to. Wasn't so good at resting though and ended up painting most of the nursery (beautiful beautiful colour) and knackering myself out. Wednesday, my friends came round and we had lunch and chatted for six hours and Fishcake amused everyone with his kitteny ways!!
I'm 28 weeks tomorrow and have just finished my anti biotics but to be honest, my bladder hurts.. so I think the anti biotics are a definite for me. Ante natal class tonight, working tomorrow then it's mums big birthday weekend that I can't go into detail on as its all a surprise :)
And thats my week for you!
Getting there!
Today I am finally in the third trimester! We've put the base coat on the nursery and picked the perfect shade of pink for Tilly's room. Just have to paint the walls and regloss everything before we can start putting miss young's room together! I'm toying with the idea of painting a tree onto the wall myself but we'll see how brave I am...
I was really keen to make sure Tilly's room doesn't look like it came straight out of a catalogue so have been finding lovely individual little bits to put together and I'm hoping it doesn't end up looking like a bomb site! I've made a few bits myself but my sewing skills aren't the most advanced so I need to find someone else to make my ideas!
Feeling pretty good considering, in the words of James, I am "heavily pregnant" I just have to remember not to do too much as I keep exhausting myself!
Nesting
Now we're closing in on the third trimester, we've finally got our bums in gear and started getting the house ready for Tilly's arrival! This has included tip runs to get rid of the crap in the garden, finally putting James' clothes into my wardrobe (still not brave enough to chuck any out so its a tight squeeze) probably not baby inspired but we've been jazzing up the hell hole of a bathroom, decluttering the whole house and most excitingly, ALL the delightful textured wallpaper in the nursery is now gone ready to sand and polyfilla the walls, paint the woodwork & radiator (its a bizzare slightly yellowy white at the moment) and eventually paint the walls.
We have had a nightmare finding a pale pink that isn't too sickly or bright and have used about 14 samples now... we have three more to try before I lose my marbles and go and get a dulux machine to make me an exact shade, not ideal as its extortionate but never mind!
Tilly now has curtains and a blanket that will start off the colour scheme of the room (a mix of pale pink, dusky pink, lilac and florals) as I really can't stand the generic, awful 'i love my bear' sop that baby shops seem to churn out... in fact, I did see a set that was reduced from £200(!!!!) to £100(!!) and when I went to see it in the flesh, it looked cheap... You seem to have to pay big money for cheapy looking stuff, which isnt on.. or settle for soppy, matchy, animals hugging or holding hands... Lovely if you're like that.. I'm sure. So our Tilly-bear will be having a one of a kind, hana special room and if it comes out looking crap at least I did it myself ha!
Things we have left to do in the house are : sort out the conservatory so it can eventually be a playroom or space for me to sew, replace the border in the living room that devil kitten has been biting off.. paint the bathroom a less depressing shade, get more storage in our bedroom, put the finishing touches to our room, turf the garden and sort out the flower beds. Not much eh? Especially when the baby's room has plasterboard walls and no bed... Ah well, I'm sure I will somehow find the energy I've been missing in the 3rd trimester.. ha!
We have had a nightmare finding a pale pink that isn't too sickly or bright and have used about 14 samples now... we have three more to try before I lose my marbles and go and get a dulux machine to make me an exact shade, not ideal as its extortionate but never mind!
Tilly now has curtains and a blanket that will start off the colour scheme of the room (a mix of pale pink, dusky pink, lilac and florals) as I really can't stand the generic, awful 'i love my bear' sop that baby shops seem to churn out... in fact, I did see a set that was reduced from £200(!!!!) to £100(!!) and when I went to see it in the flesh, it looked cheap... You seem to have to pay big money for cheapy looking stuff, which isnt on.. or settle for soppy, matchy, animals hugging or holding hands... Lovely if you're like that.. I'm sure. So our Tilly-bear will be having a one of a kind, hana special room and if it comes out looking crap at least I did it myself ha!
Things we have left to do in the house are : sort out the conservatory so it can eventually be a playroom or space for me to sew, replace the border in the living room that devil kitten has been biting off.. paint the bathroom a less depressing shade, get more storage in our bedroom, put the finishing touches to our room, turf the garden and sort out the flower beds. Not much eh? Especially when the baby's room has plasterboard walls and no bed... Ah well, I'm sure I will somehow find the energy I've been missing in the 3rd trimester.. ha!
Anxiety issues
Not many people know, but I am really, really suffering with pregnancy related anxiety since my bleeds. I didn't notice it myself til about 20 weeks but I don't seem to be able to leave the house (apart from going to work) without James, not even to go to the Co-op and struggle to persuade myself to go to the postbox. I can't really say why... I'm certainly not enjoying it, but I can't help myself. The thought of being out on my own is terrifying and I can't help but make excuses. I have managed to have a few exceptions and met a few friends for lunch but always made sure James knew where I am, what I was doing, who I was with and that he was meeting me after.
I really hope I haven't upset too many people by being so anti social... I'm hoping its just a phase. There are a few symptoms of pregnancy that seem quite common, like this, that noone tells you about.. I mean for gods sake, I was close to tears at the thought of going to my ante natal class and nearly cried a few times whilst there too...
Roll on October, I want my baby & my confidence back!
I really hope I haven't upset too many people by being so anti social... I'm hoping its just a phase. There are a few symptoms of pregnancy that seem quite common, like this, that noone tells you about.. I mean for gods sake, I was close to tears at the thought of going to my ante natal class and nearly cried a few times whilst there too...
Roll on October, I want my baby & my confidence back!
Baby Shopping & Boobies
We went on a bit of a spree on Saturday... Tilly and I were thoroughly spoilt by Mr Y. We got, the beloved pink lining changing bag with lilac bows on (very yummy), two horse teddies, a snowsuit, the most beautiful blanket, a very exciting boob pump, bottles, electric steraliser etc etc etc and ordered a cot bumper, swaddle blanket, changing mat and an 'activity spiral' for squiglets pram or car seat to keep her amused! Mr Y got a lovely pair of shoes too so he can't complain! Oh and we almost accidentally saw the Olympic flame ha!
On the subject of boob pumps.. I have been really keen from the start to exclusively breastfeed Miss Young and will be starting my first 'clinic' on thursday to learn how to have the best chance of success. My plan is to feed her as much as I can and express as much as possible so that James can be part of feeding her too as well as my mum when I go back to work. Its really important to me that shes not formula fed so I will be gutted if it all goes wrong. However, we have all the hi-tech equipment now and my mum has given me some great encouragement and tips so I do feel confident..
Oh yes... and we are now nearly 26 weeks.. which is well past baby Y being viable so shes got a great chance :) stay put though squiglet... or else!
On the subject of boob pumps.. I have been really keen from the start to exclusively breastfeed Miss Young and will be starting my first 'clinic' on thursday to learn how to have the best chance of success. My plan is to feed her as much as I can and express as much as possible so that James can be part of feeding her too as well as my mum when I go back to work. Its really important to me that shes not formula fed so I will be gutted if it all goes wrong. However, we have all the hi-tech equipment now and my mum has given me some great encouragement and tips so I do feel confident..
Oh yes... and we are now nearly 26 weeks.. which is well past baby Y being viable so shes got a great chance :) stay put though squiglet... or else!
Lots of lovely news!
23 weeks today! One week til viability! Hooray! I have lots of lovely news... firstly, my lovely James proposed :) he took me out on a pedalo in the harbour in Corfu and a speedboat brought over the ring followed by champagne on the beach (only a sip for me) we spent a week in Corfu and it was over 40c every day but it was brilliant to get away for a week and see James relaxed and happy. We went on a few boat trips and had dinner out a few times, lovely relaxed week!
In pregnancy related news, I feel GREAT!! Tilly is kicking all day long and I don't feel tired or ill anymore :) and no bleeds for 8 weeks! Hooray!
Life will be full of wedding fairs, baby shopping and ante natal classes from now on! And sewing as I got myself a bargain sewing machine and plan to make stuff for babykins :)
Only bad news was that I lost another job, my boss was sneaky about it and simply stopped giving me hours though she needed someone else. Nevermind, her loss!
I shall try to write more blogs soon, but with no scans til September I'm at a loss for new info!
Adios for now! x
Spoilt mummy and baby!
Tilly and I are becoming very spoilt. Tilly now has her very own steiff bear and lots of clothes. Her lovely nana has bought her a few gorgeous little purple bits and some rather snazzy socks!
There's still so so much to buy and I think it's about time I made a list!
Also lovely James has told me were going on a mini break to Brighton in a few weeks after our holiday! Erm how spoilt am I?! Yay!!! Love my boyfriend :)
There's still so so much to buy and I think it's about time I made a list!
Also lovely James has told me were going on a mini break to Brighton in a few weeks after our holiday! Erm how spoilt am I?! Yay!!! Love my boyfriend :)
She's a tiddler! 20week scan.
I'm finally over half way! Let the countdown begin!!! I had my 20 week scan on Friday and it was lovely :) got to see my lovely baby for a full half an hour and watch her have a little dance! Only downside was that she's measuring quite small for now but I've been reassured she can still catch up and be a fatty :)
I also have a low lying placenta which explains the bleeds and means I have to have an extra scan at 34 weeks to check where it is and check her growth too hopefully! If it hasn't moved, I will most likely be booked in for a c section but hey, baby's health comes first!!!
I also have a low lying placenta which explains the bleeds and means I have to have an extra scan at 34 weeks to check where it is and check her growth too hopefully! If it hasn't moved, I will most likely be booked in for a c section but hey, baby's health comes first!!!
DIO 2012
About two weeks ago I joined a group on Facebook called Due in October
2012. It's a group of about 250 women aged between 19 and early 40s,
there are 1st time mums and mums expecting their 10th so it's a real
mixed bag. Nothing is off limits, we talk about incontinence, babygros,
miscarriages, poo and cats. I can honestly say I haven't felt lonely
since joining and have made some lovely friends. There are some very sad
times and horrible scares but mainly it's the best thing ever for an
expectant mum! I feel like I can ask them anything, even unrelated to
baby and I'm super happy! It's like a little family :)
Genetics
Last night I finally met James' extended family for the first time at a BBQ. Unfortunately I'm full of cold at the moment so wasn't feeling magical!
Sadly james' great nan passed away last month and her funeral is on wednesday so they were discussing her eulogy. Lovely James "doesn't do" that sort of talk so I was left there listening ( I never met his great nan) ao occupied myself with staring at James' female relatives and wondering which of their traits our daughter would inherent... This wasn't a stressful task as they're all beautiful and don't seem to age! Hooray!! There's a high chance my baby will be beautiful too as :)
Feel yuck today and James is in a grump. Happy bank holiday woo... :;
Sadly james' great nan passed away last month and her funeral is on wednesday so they were discussing her eulogy. Lovely James "doesn't do" that sort of talk so I was left there listening ( I never met his great nan) ao occupied myself with staring at James' female relatives and wondering which of their traits our daughter would inherent... This wasn't a stressful task as they're all beautiful and don't seem to age! Hooray!! There's a high chance my baby will be beautiful too as :)
Feel yuck today and James is in a grump. Happy bank holiday woo... :;
Feeling much more positive!
Last weekend was probably one of the hardest of my life emotionally. I 'rested' monday and tuesday, went back to work wednesday but was sick all night and ended up resting on thursday too! I worked again on Friday and didn't suffer too much for it!
When I had my bleed, my boss cancelled my Saturday shift so I begged James to take the weekend off and spend time with me for the first time in a few months. (My darling boyfriend works 6 days a week, ten hour days so I can work part time and rest) so thats what he did :)
Friday night, we got dinner from the chip shop and went down to the sea walls and sat watching the boats in the solent, then we went over to my parents new penthouse and met my younger brothers new girlfriend and had a drink on the balcony overlooking even more of the solent and the isle of wight ( I had elderflower presse that looked like wine in a wine glass... placebo effect :P ) which was lovely but after a day on my feet I needed my bed so we went home to chill out with Fishcake, the worlds strangest kitten.
Saturday we hopped on the ferry and then the fastcat and spent the day in Ryde on the Isle of Wight, we walked along the seafront, had lunch in a lovely mexican restaurant, did a spot of baby shopping and bought these:
When I had my bleed, my boss cancelled my Saturday shift so I begged James to take the weekend off and spend time with me for the first time in a few months. (My darling boyfriend works 6 days a week, ten hour days so I can work part time and rest) so thats what he did :)
Friday night, we got dinner from the chip shop and went down to the sea walls and sat watching the boats in the solent, then we went over to my parents new penthouse and met my younger brothers new girlfriend and had a drink on the balcony overlooking even more of the solent and the isle of wight ( I had elderflower presse that looked like wine in a wine glass... placebo effect :P ) which was lovely but after a day on my feet I needed my bed so we went home to chill out with Fishcake, the worlds strangest kitten.
Saturday we hopped on the ferry and then the fastcat and spent the day in Ryde on the Isle of Wight, we walked along the seafront, had lunch in a lovely mexican restaurant, did a spot of baby shopping and bought these:
Then we had an icecream and hopped back on the fastcat, we popped to mums for more drinks on the balcony then went for a lovely meal with my parents and my brothers new girlfriend.
Sunday, we sailed over to priory bay and had a bbq on the beach, had a swim and sunbathed then came home and had pizza.
All in all, a perfect weekend. I don't say it enough, but James is the reason I keep going when I feel crappy, he is so supportive, kind and wonderful, it helps that hes gorgeous too. I feel so lucky to be having a baby with my best friend. Looking forward to being a parent with the best partner in crime ever. I know I can count on him for anything and everything and that he works himself into the ground to make sure we have everything we need. Love you Jimmy Jams :)
Poorly lady
I've been ill now for a week :( no fun in this heat!! Whats really cheered me up is joining the "due in October 2012" group on facebook because we're all in the same boat and I feel less alone! Its lovely finding out who's having what and talking NON STOP about babies :D
Me and James are hopefully going to the Isle of Wight for a mini break this weekend, really think we need it as we haven't really spent much time together due to him working all the time.
Me and James are hopefully going to the Isle of Wight for a mini break this weekend, really think we need it as we haven't really spent much time together due to him working all the time.
How I've lost a stone whilst pregnant
No I didn't cut off an arm. I started slimming world online when I was 5 weeks gone and lost 8lbs in about 2 weeks then found out at 7 weeks and started to feel pants so only ate a little bit just enough to look after baby. Then I had sickness for two weeks and now I try to eat healthily and get all the vitamins I need but must admit I eat out and have had a few takeaways recently but still not gaining! Will start back on a pregnancy friendly version of slimming world to maintain my weight and eat as healthily as I can as soon as I'm done resting! That's my secret lol!
Bed rest is for lazies
So, I had a second bleed and went to the out of hours doctor, she heard baby's heart and it's nice and strong and examined me. She think I'll be fine if I rest for a while. I've done some research and think i have a sensitive cervix or a low lying placenta, if it's the latter I'll be put on bed rest at my 20 week scan which won't be great as we'll struggle on one income.
Very tired today, pregnancy is one hell of an emotional roller coaster.
Very tired today, pregnancy is one hell of an emotional roller coaster.
The worst night of my life
Last night was the worst night of my life. I woke up as usual at 3am for a wee and found I had been bleeding. Trying not to become hysterical, I rang NHS direct who put me on a wait list to speak to the out of hours doctor... longest 45 mins of my life!! I kept myself calm by listening to her heart with my doppler. He told me to come and see him at 4.45 so I woke James up and my parents and they drove me there whilst I tried not to cry too much. The doctor was a lovely guy but his first doppler didn't work, which gave me a heart attack but with the next one he heard her heartbeart which was beautiful as ever. He then rang the on call 'gyno' who told me to rest up and let my midwife know.
I know theres a few reasons for bleeds, I had a slight bleed of old blood at 15 weeks, but it honestly is the most gut wrenching and terrifying thing I've ever experienced. The thought of losing my baby is enough to ruin me.
Anyways, we will wait and see..
I know theres a few reasons for bleeds, I had a slight bleed of old blood at 15 weeks, but it honestly is the most gut wrenching and terrifying thing I've ever experienced. The thought of losing my baby is enough to ruin me.
Anyways, we will wait and see..
This is gorgeous
I hate the following
- Winny the pooh
- Hot Pink
- 'I love my bear' soppy type things
- cartoons
The friend problem
Ive known about my pregnancy for 10 weeks now and the worst thing about it I've found is friends. They drop like flies. You don't get invited anywhere, you don't hear from them and you become really quite dull. One friend in particular who I was very close to me hasn't spoken to me since I told her!
I've found that some of my friends who don't invite me out simply don't think I'll want to go out as I suffered from sickness for a few weeks and wasn't very social but the easiest way to solve that was by telling them that I am very available and very bored!!
I feel okay about being dumped by some friends as its a really good way to judge who was actually your friend and who just wanted a drinking partner! Oh and being deleted by male friends on Facebook who were always just friends kind of makes me think that now I'm pregnant I'm not worth being friends with as access to my pants isn't very likely ha!
The plus side is that my closest friends have been wonderful at giving me support when I need it and space when I'm tired and emotional! Also, I've reconnected with so many people who are genuinely excited for our babys arrival which is so sweet :) and I've become closer to a lot of friends who are parents themselves and I have learnt to bloody well respect them! So far I've not met up with anyone it's all been mainly Facebook based but I hope that I will have a whole new group of friends to enjoy as well as the ones that have been such stars!
Patience is a virtue
As you can tell by my inability to wait for my 20 week scan to find out we were having a girl! I love saying I'm havif a girl, I've always always wanted a daughter :) today I'm feeling frustrated as I hate waiting to go shopping ( I'm naughty and already have a swimsuit, some shoes and two sleep suits) and hate looking fat rather than obviously pregnant! And I hate not being able to feel her yet! Patience is a bloody virtue and I have none!!!
In less grumbly news, I've started to clear out the nursery but it's unfortunately full of my mums stuff for her new house. I've found a company that does anti bacterial all natural paint in really cute colours that's safe for me to use whilst pregnant so im going to start doing all that probably the end of next month! I've got my eye on this absolutely beautiful giant wall sticker of a tree at the moment and a smaller one for above the cot that says always kiss me goodnight. So soppy but so cute! Cots is another issue, I know I want a white one and I know it has a be a cotbed but can I choose one that isn't a ridiculous price?! Hellll no!
She's a girl!!!
So, at 16 weeks, I couldn't wait any longer and had a private scan! James and I went, I was completely convinced we were having a boy. But no, shes a girl :) which makes one boy and one girl due this year in our family. Couldn't be more perfect!! So ever since I've been looking at little dresses and shoes and have fallen head over heels for a lilac pram
Isn't it BEAUTIFUL! It's been discontinued so my quest to find it continues!
I'm going to be an Aunty!!
So, I haven't mentioned... my stepbrother and his girlfriend Faye are also having a baby!! He's due six weeks before my baby.. yes, I'm having a nephew!! When we found out, mum and I went moderately wild in the Next baby boy section! I can't wait to be an aunty, having two babies to cuddle at Christmas will be so lovely :)
All goes a bit down hill.. Then up again!
At 12 weeks, I announced my pregnancy to the world, the outpouring of love and support from my friends was overwhelming and made me cry! Its lovely how a baby can bring so many friends together. I decided on my three, yes three, godmothers, Katie, Tasha and Rosie and was loving being pregnant and not having to hide it from anyone.
I told my employers and had rather mixed reviews. One was lovely, she asked me how I was feeling, how much I wanted to work and if the work load was ok and is still very supportive and lovely about my pregnancy. However, the other one found out through a colleague and promptly fired me for some lameo reason. Lovely guys!! Luckily, I hated that job too! Oh and I had two lovely weeks of morning sickness to enjoy!!
So, I rang my mum, tearful and feeling utterly rejected, as ever, mummy to the rescue. Her and Simon asked one of his colleagues to take me on to help them get new leads and do some admin. Thus, started my career in the electrical contractors trade! I think I'm doing really well, I'm motivated entirely but not letting down my parents when they've put their necks on line for me and James far too many times! My job role has changed in the last month and I mainly deal with marketing. I've been arranging a new health and safety certification for them, redesigning the website, ordering, invoicing and branding the vans so its pretty varied. I finally feel like I have a real job and I absolutely love it.
Happily, James also loves his new job and will be off to College to train to be an electrician in August. Over all, we are financially much better off, much happier and much closer as a couple.
I told my employers and had rather mixed reviews. One was lovely, she asked me how I was feeling, how much I wanted to work and if the work load was ok and is still very supportive and lovely about my pregnancy. However, the other one found out through a colleague and promptly fired me for some lameo reason. Lovely guys!! Luckily, I hated that job too! Oh and I had two lovely weeks of morning sickness to enjoy!!
So, I rang my mum, tearful and feeling utterly rejected, as ever, mummy to the rescue. Her and Simon asked one of his colleagues to take me on to help them get new leads and do some admin. Thus, started my career in the electrical contractors trade! I think I'm doing really well, I'm motivated entirely but not letting down my parents when they've put their necks on line for me and James far too many times! My job role has changed in the last month and I mainly deal with marketing. I've been arranging a new health and safety certification for them, redesigning the website, ordering, invoicing and branding the vans so its pretty varied. I finally feel like I have a real job and I absolutely love it.
Happily, James also loves his new job and will be off to College to train to be an electrician in August. Over all, we are financially much better off, much happier and much closer as a couple.
New Jobs and the First scan!
So, we both lost our jobs... What happened next? Did we both go on the dole? Well, a week passed, we applied for every job we could find and then Mum came home. I couldn't bear to tell her to her face as I knew that seeing any disappointment in her eyes would haunt me so, being the coward that I am, I emailed her. I can honestly say that her response was wonderful. She came straight over full of cuddles and Simon, my wonderful stepdad had already sorted out a Job for James as an electricians mate starting the following week providing he passed a test. They also promised to help us out with anything we needed and that we would never go without. So, feeling a bit more confident in myself (my ex-boss had pretty much outright rejected me when I asked to revoke my resignation which made me doubt my abilities as I had always thought I was a good worker, nevermind, was a shit job!) I went round to the Wine Bar I had worked at during the summer holidays when I was at University and asked for a job which I got!! Then mum popped into a lovely little bistro and I got a job there too! So there we were, three jobs between us :) sorted!
I met my wonderful midwife Lorna in the middle of week 8 and met a lovely lady who was 37 weeks pregnant after 5 years of trying and IVF which was wonderful.
So, at week 9 (they thought I was week 12 but scan showed otherwise) I went for my first scan with my mum, poor old James had to miss out as it was his first day back at work (he passed that test with 100%, I was so bloody proud!)
The next three weeks passed, didn't feel too bad, tired and very paranoid that something awful would happen and I counted down every second to the glorious 12 week mark which was also my 22nd Birthday, my 12 week scan was wonderful, it was the best birthday present I could ask for! Mum and James came along this time and I loved watching James see our baby for the first time.
I met my wonderful midwife Lorna in the middle of week 8 and met a lovely lady who was 37 weeks pregnant after 5 years of trying and IVF which was wonderful.
So, at week 9 (they thought I was week 12 but scan showed otherwise) I went for my first scan with my mum, poor old James had to miss out as it was his first day back at work (he passed that test with 100%, I was so bloody proud!)
The next three weeks passed, didn't feel too bad, tired and very paranoid that something awful would happen and I counted down every second to the glorious 12 week mark which was also my 22nd Birthday, my 12 week scan was wonderful, it was the best birthday present I could ask for! Mum and James came along this time and I loved watching James see our baby for the first time.
Finding Out
I found out I was going to be a mum at seven weeks. I had my implant removed in December and when I missed my first period I must have taken 100 pregnancy tests all of which were negative. Though I wasn't planning on getting pregnant as I'd only been with my boyfriend, James since October, with every negative, a deep feeling of disappointment set in. By the time my period was six weeks late, I had given up and booked a Doctors appointment to see what was wrong with me. She was a trainee GP and said it was just a side effect from my implant removal but asked me to take a test to make sure. She'd put the wrapper in the bin and had to fish it out to check the result. "Is this good news?" she said, "It's news!" came my shocked response. So I went home and told James who was shocked but delighted. Later that day, he lost his job and my new jobs (I'd resigned four days previously) fell through, leaving us pretty worried. To make matters worse, my mum went on holiday for a week so I couldn't tell her.
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