Last night was the worst night of my life. I woke up as usual at 3am for a wee and found I had been bleeding. Trying not to become hysterical, I rang NHS direct who put me on a wait list to speak to the out of hours doctor... longest 45 mins of my life!! I kept myself calm by listening to her heart with my doppler. He told me to come and see him at 4.45 so I woke James up and my parents and they drove me there whilst I tried not to cry too much. The doctor was a lovely guy but his first doppler didn't work, which gave me a heart attack but with the next one he heard her heartbeart which was beautiful as ever. He then rang the on call 'gyno' who told me to rest up and let my midwife know.
I know theres a few reasons for bleeds, I had a slight bleed of old blood at 15 weeks, but it honestly is the most gut wrenching and terrifying thing I've ever experienced. The thought of losing my baby is enough to ruin me.
Anyways, we will wait and see..
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