I can't get no sleep
In the words of that faithless song... I can't get no sleep! I'm always struggled with periods of insomnia but this one is badly timed! I'm now worried I won't have the energy to actually give birth as I have barely slept for weeks! I'm managing two hours of broken sleep at a time. I would seriously get more sleep with a newborn! It's 5am, I'm due to be induced in 28 hours, please pray for me to fit 8 hours in somewhere!
Eight days over due
So it seems my darling child is very comfy in my tummy! Which means that on Wednesday if she hasn't made her grand appearance, I will be induced.
If I'm honest, the thought of being induced horrifies me. I won't get the water birth I'd like and it's likely to take about 24 hours to start off (boring) be a lot more intense and painful and more likely to end in an emergency c section. In an ideal world, I will go into labour naturally, stay at home until it gets too much, jump into the pool at the birthing centre at the hospital and just use gas and air.
If I'm honest, I feel as though my body is failing me. Going into labour is the most natural and womanly thing in the world... It's hard not doing so... Trying my best to focus on the fact that I've managed to grow a perfect baby in my tummy to well over full term. But illa admit, it's not easy.
Come soon miss Young, I promise that me and daddy will look after you forever.
If I'm honest, the thought of being induced horrifies me. I won't get the water birth I'd like and it's likely to take about 24 hours to start off (boring) be a lot more intense and painful and more likely to end in an emergency c section. In an ideal world, I will go into labour naturally, stay at home until it gets too much, jump into the pool at the birthing centre at the hospital and just use gas and air.
If I'm honest, I feel as though my body is failing me. Going into labour is the most natural and womanly thing in the world... It's hard not doing so... Trying my best to focus on the fact that I've managed to grow a perfect baby in my tummy to well over full term. But illa admit, it's not easy.
Come soon miss Young, I promise that me and daddy will look after you forever.
Being over due
So, we've reached and passed our due date! And I'm okay with that! Seeing how miserable other ladies have made themselves over being overdue has made me think that I really don't mind... It means I get extra time with my wiggly bump, more uninterrupted baths and a bit more sleep!
I feel like as long as my little baby arrives safely, I could not care less! Sure it'd be nice to have the perfect water birth on my due date but if I have to go through induction, four days of labour and a c section... Then so be it. As long as my baby is safe. In a months time, an extra few days really won't feel like anything...
Patience is a virtue. One that I have finally managed after being the worlds least patience woman ever (hence 16 week sexing scan)
See you soon darling baby girl
I feel like as long as my little baby arrives safely, I could not care less! Sure it'd be nice to have the perfect water birth on my due date but if I have to go through induction, four days of labour and a c section... Then so be it. As long as my baby is safe. In a months time, an extra few days really won't feel like anything...
Patience is a virtue. One that I have finally managed after being the worlds least patience woman ever (hence 16 week sexing scan)
See you soon darling baby girl
Two days till due date!
Well, I didn't think I'd get this far! I'm due in two days and 100% ready for our baby bears arrival! The car seat is ready, the nursery is ready and mummy and daddy can't wait!
A lot has changed in the last 40 weeks, James has a new career and is back at college, I've lost lots of jobs due to my "condition" and we are now planning a wedding!
I think the main thing that I wish I'd been told when I found out I was pregnant is that you never stop worrying! Ever. All day all I think about is my little tummy pig! I wish I'd been told that some of my 'friends' would be absolute arseholes and not bother with me at all... But that new friends are easy to find and how much you appreciate the true friends in your life.
The only downer really on the whole thing at the moment is financial... But then who doesn't worry about money?! Unfortunately James doesn't have as many hours as he did over the summer, I've now given up work and our lodger is moving out. Household finances have dwindled to about a third of what they were.. However, with a very snazzy spreadsheet we've worked out we'll manage and both agreed on one thing... What more could we both want?! Baby very nearly with us, due to be married next year lovely house, lovely family, our health and a lot of happiness.
The thing I'm most excited about is James becoming a daddy, I wholly believe he will be the best dad to our baby and get all teary thinking about how lucky and blessed I am to have him by my side :)
Hopefully my next post will have a squishy baby face in :) or ill be moaning and over due! The main thing is that she comes safe and sound i can wait a little longer yet :)
A lot has changed in the last 40 weeks, James has a new career and is back at college, I've lost lots of jobs due to my "condition" and we are now planning a wedding!
I think the main thing that I wish I'd been told when I found out I was pregnant is that you never stop worrying! Ever. All day all I think about is my little tummy pig! I wish I'd been told that some of my 'friends' would be absolute arseholes and not bother with me at all... But that new friends are easy to find and how much you appreciate the true friends in your life.
The only downer really on the whole thing at the moment is financial... But then who doesn't worry about money?! Unfortunately James doesn't have as many hours as he did over the summer, I've now given up work and our lodger is moving out. Household finances have dwindled to about a third of what they were.. However, with a very snazzy spreadsheet we've worked out we'll manage and both agreed on one thing... What more could we both want?! Baby very nearly with us, due to be married next year lovely house, lovely family, our health and a lot of happiness.
The thing I'm most excited about is James becoming a daddy, I wholly believe he will be the best dad to our baby and get all teary thinking about how lucky and blessed I am to have him by my side :)
Hopefully my next post will have a squishy baby face in :) or ill be moaning and over due! The main thing is that she comes safe and sound i can wait a little longer yet :)
38+5
So! Nine days until my due date and I'm getting bored! I want to get out and make some mummy friends!
Had my midwife appointment yesterday, all is well, Tilly is fully engaged and ready to go... Hopefully soon :( I'm getting uncomfortable and unbelievably bored bored bored!!
So bored that I can't think of anything interesting to say haha!
Had my midwife appointment yesterday, all is well, Tilly is fully engaged and ready to go... Hopefully soon :( I'm getting uncomfortable and unbelievably bored bored bored!!
So bored that I can't think of anything interesting to say haha!
So it's October!
Which means its the month that Tilly is officially allowed to come out and play! I'm 36+3 weeks pregnant now and baby Y is considered fully cooked in three sleeps (eeeeee!!!) can't wait!
The last two weeks have flown by, Tilly still seems to be head down and ready to go and has been treating mummy to some lovely pains in preparation! (thanks tiny bum) in the last two weeks I've had two baby showers and Tilly was ridiculously spoilt by all! And James has turned 27! Big boy now lol!
Im not uncomfortable or impatient and happy to let little bear cook to her hearts content! I'm not scared about the birth or labour and I can't wait for sleepless nights with my longed for little bub! I say bring it on! Bring it all on! I can't wait to be a mummy :)
The one thing I'm most excited about is James becoming a daddy. I believe he will be an incredible dad and has proven to me that he's my soulmate. We've been together for less than a year, I've been pregnant, anxious, grumpy and evil for nine months of that year and he's been my rock. I couldn't ask for him to work harder to support us and I'm going to be a snotty mess when I become mrs young next September :)
Life is glorious!
The last two weeks have flown by, Tilly still seems to be head down and ready to go and has been treating mummy to some lovely pains in preparation! (thanks tiny bum) in the last two weeks I've had two baby showers and Tilly was ridiculously spoilt by all! And James has turned 27! Big boy now lol!
Im not uncomfortable or impatient and happy to let little bear cook to her hearts content! I'm not scared about the birth or labour and I can't wait for sleepless nights with my longed for little bub! I say bring it on! Bring it all on! I can't wait to be a mummy :)
The one thing I'm most excited about is James becoming a daddy. I believe he will be an incredible dad and has proven to me that he's my soulmate. We've been together for less than a year, I've been pregnant, anxious, grumpy and evil for nine months of that year and he's been my rock. I couldn't ask for him to work harder to support us and I'm going to be a snotty mess when I become mrs young next September :)
Life is glorious!
The great escape
So! We've had our 34 week scan and the miracle of the womb has happened! Tilly is head down and the exit is clear and don't I know it!!!!
I've been up all week with horrendous waves of back pain, cramps, tightenings and everything else that hurts! Starting to think that Tilly may want an early exit (no baby no!) I'm knackered and feel like crap!
We found out at the scan that she has freakishly long legs so I might have to take scissors to the hospital to cut the feet off her babygros... Froggy baby :)
I have my family baby shower on Wednesday and the friends one on Saturday so would appreciate it if squidgers stayed put till then!
I've been up all week with horrendous waves of back pain, cramps, tightenings and everything else that hurts! Starting to think that Tilly may want an early exit (no baby no!) I'm knackered and feel like crap!
We found out at the scan that she has freakishly long legs so I might have to take scissors to the hospital to cut the feet off her babygros... Froggy baby :)
I have my family baby shower on Wednesday and the friends one on Saturday so would appreciate it if squidgers stayed put till then!
I wandered lonely as a cloud
A really common thing I've heard on my 'due in october' group is how lonely being pregnant is. I can personally vouch for that! It feels a lot like the second that second line pops up on that test, 90% of your friends have absolutely no interest in you or time for you.
The worst type of 'friend' is the one that pays you absolutely no attention whilst you're boring and pregnant but "can't wait" to meet your baby... two words to that one... PISS OFF!
At first I was really hurt by how shite some of my 'friends' have been but now I see it as the perfect way to cut down the wedding guest list and have a good clear out of friends. I no longer see the long and lonely weekend sat in entirely on my own (James works seven days a week) as a bad thing... I tend to potter around the house, organise Tilly's nursery and play with my beloved kitten Fishcake.
I'm really looking forward to sending out the wedding invites to my real friends and hope they know how much I appreciate them. Quite a few of my friends either live miles away or are stupidly busy but still take the time to check in us and keep me from singing 'all by myself' by Celine Dion in my pjs to my cats... It's going to be lovely to be surrounded by people that I genuinely love and that genuinely love us back at the wedding! No wasting money on twat bags that I should've bopped on the noggin months/years ago.
Plus, my life long best friend is growing (awkwardly) in my tummy... so that's always a plus :)
The worst type of 'friend' is the one that pays you absolutely no attention whilst you're boring and pregnant but "can't wait" to meet your baby... two words to that one... PISS OFF!
At first I was really hurt by how shite some of my 'friends' have been but now I see it as the perfect way to cut down the wedding guest list and have a good clear out of friends. I no longer see the long and lonely weekend sat in entirely on my own (James works seven days a week) as a bad thing... I tend to potter around the house, organise Tilly's nursery and play with my beloved kitten Fishcake.
I'm really looking forward to sending out the wedding invites to my real friends and hope they know how much I appreciate them. Quite a few of my friends either live miles away or are stupidly busy but still take the time to check in us and keep me from singing 'all by myself' by Celine Dion in my pjs to my cats... It's going to be lovely to be surrounded by people that I genuinely love and that genuinely love us back at the wedding! No wasting money on twat bags that I should've bopped on the noggin months/years ago.
Plus, my life long best friend is growing (awkwardly) in my tummy... so that's always a plus :)
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